My Grandma

My grandma, Naomi Gail, my best friend, my protector, the one I ran too, is one of the best people on earth.  I knew from a young age, that my dad's mom, is amazing.  She was the one I called when "mother" and I would fight, or if "mother" attacked me, for anything.  I would call her and tell her everything, and she was the one that would calm me down, she was the one who would tell me she was proud of me, that I was being good, and strong.  She was the one, that when she told me she loved me, I knew/felt that she really did.

 When I would call and tell my dad, he would always just tell me, "You know how your mother is, just leave her alone. Stay in your room and just don't talk to her."

It was hard because she lived in Pennsylvania, and we lived....all over. Myrtle Beach, SC, Warner Robins, GA, Las Vegas, NV, Grand Forks, ND, Geilenkerchen, Germany, and Manassas, VA. I don't know why I never thought to ask my parents if I could live with my grandparents.  No, I know why, because if I did, who knows how my life would have ended up.  It probably would have been perfect, I would have been happy, I would't have been abused everyday.  (But, I wouldn't have met Steve.)

Of course, I dreamt about my "perfect" mom, the one who I could call my best friend, the one that I would run too, to tell EVERYTHING too, to cry with, to laugh with, to have healthy fights with.  I might not have had this person in my house, growing up, but I had the closest thing to it in my grandma.

So, my amazing grandma was diagnosed with Alzheimer's about 4 years ago.  At first, I didn't get, see, or hear how it was affecting her.  I would still call her every 2 weeks like I have been doing my whole adult life, she remembered who I was, we continued to have great talks......Everyone else around me seemed to be affected by this, but me, she didn't forget about me...........Until about a month ago, my dad was up there visiting, and I called, she answered, I said my usual, "Hello my beautiful Grandma! It's Kira." "Hello" she said softly, and then....she handed the phone to my dad, and I broke down crying. 

I know this is selfish, and I know my grandpa was trying to protect me this whole time, he kept telling me, "I don't want you to see her like this, I want you to remember her by the good times." But I haven't tried calling since this last time. 

“My Yellow Rose”
May 10, 2012

You are there for me always

In my time of need

You help give me advice

And you help me to succeed

You have always been there

When I needed to call

When I needed your help

After another hurtful brawl

You always know just what to say

To make me feel at ease

You comfort me, and guide me

You are like a warm summer breeze

You are my yellow rose

With your love shining strong and bright

Compassionate and stunning

You fill my world with light

You will be with me always

In my heart, for all the rest of time

To help guide me, to make the right decision

Together you will help me climb

I love you so much

I just wanted you to know

How much you mean to me

Your love for me has always shown!

Grandma –
          You have always been the person I run to, to help me get through some hard times. You have always been my role model and someone I look up too. You have always been my guardian angel. Thank you for always being here for me and for helping me grow to be the person I am today. I think about you every day! I miss and love you so much!

Love Always & Forever - Kira